tomorrow mercury goes into retrograde and i'm thinking about how the more you stand up for yourself, the easier it is to forgive. i'm mourning the death of the newspaper classifieds. i'm thinking about how my friend told me she got her period through an email in electric blue font when we were 12. the kind of vulnerability that is less an open wound and more a surety of oneself, a contract to be radically you, is a freeing and powerful resource.
i can never find anything in my purse, so i decided to put every loose item in one of several tiny bags. this russian doll solution didn't work, but it did tell me that i have turned into my grandma. rummaging in her purse – sometimes by request, sometimes to sneak a lipstick – was a sacred activity, kneeling on the carpet in bare feet, groping cheap satin cheetah print lining and crumpled tim horton's napkins. i miss her in the things i've become. i honour her in the things i will be.
lately i am imagining rik and i blistering under the florida sun, riding her retired father's reclining tricycle and smoking marlboro reds. her trip to florida has afforded her the chance to put things on hold, to just exist, which i imagine is simultaneously excruciating and meditative. but if a palm tree falls in florida, does anyone even care enough to hear it? is this radical being? i wonder if our periods can sync even when we are thousands of miles apart. i try to teach her that the more you stand up for yourself, the easier it is to forgive.
Gemini – Horoscope – February 26, TODAY.com
You’re changing your views and becoming more commitment-oriented. Business partnerships are taking on a heavier duty, forcing you to make hard decisions around love. Should you stay or go is dependent on your return. Just like any other investment, it’s worth considering if they are worth your time and energy.
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